Water (जल)
Only fire can save water
But fire costs blood
Ready to play with fire?
Then pay up
Make blood flow like water
Till then let’s mooch off
the colours of
rainbows
yellow from the hand pumps
green from the ponds
orange from the rivers
gray from the lakes
black from the sewers
pink from the streams
Blue?
in your dreams
Leave only red streaks up above
and let them burst out
through veins of the empty skies
let them mirror
in the cracks of the lands below
Paint an apocalypse
Eventually
drown
drunk on red
when all’s on fire
and blood flows like water.
– K. Tanushree ‘Svayam’
Date of completion – 5th August, 2019
Date of publication – 10th August, 2019
Rose
I
Claiming a rose
as I never got one,
so shall I write
and make one mine
forever.
II
A bouquet discarded
and all dive in.
Vulturous scramblers
ravage
as many as claws could.
With all their love for roses,
they hunt down their scent,
raid my garden
and ravish my last one.
III
“There is something horrible about a flower;
This, broken in my hand, is one of those
He threw it in just now; it will not live another hour;
There are thousands more; you do not miss a rose.”
– Charlotte Mew (‘In Nunhead Cemetery’, from The Farmer’s Bride)
Ah!
Ever seen a corpse
so pretty and delicate?
Coffined in a rich bouquet,
severed fresh from thorns,
expressing your love
through its pure deadness,
stocked in foreign vases,
or buried in secrecy
till they turn crispy
fossiled somewhere
in a tale of romance,
till the pages, fully drenched,
start leaking red
and the book releases
a fine fragrance of murder.
This one.
Yeah, this red one,
it sure is a perfect carcass.
Soaked in blood,
tainted with passion,
numbed by the desire
to embody love.
O lovers, beware!
Rose is not alone
when it comes to love.
-K. Tanushree ‘Svayam’
Date of completion: 20th June, 2019
Date of publishing : 21st June, 2019.
A Road-side Affair
A loose truck flies on the road
with murder in its eyes.
The drunken headlights flash
white lights of warning
to a lost bus
that ghosts past nothings
destined to land a brazen kiss
straight on the face
of the soaring truck
in the middle of nowhere.
what smashes what explodes what thrusts what pierces
what hisses what stings what roars what groans
what gropes what claws what burns what smokes
what gags what strangles
Magnetism
can be a cruel phenomena,
even metaphorically.
Who could tell what made the first move?
Really? At that heavenly speed
could there still be
any scope for foreplay?
That was one hell of a road
to divine experience.
They were caught in the act,
the two on fire.
All stunted lights-
red, yellow, green, neon, blue-
started working again,
all thanks to the colossal impact.
It rainbowed that night.
All one can say is that
after the ruthless smooching,
things escalated quickly.
No genius could tell them apart.
United in death and funeral,
they made one gigantic carcass
where one melted away
through sweating
while trying to hump the other
and the other
exploded while performing
an exquisite somersault.
Who can tell what won ?
Considering the news
that the number of corpses on one side
equals
the number of corpses on the other side,
curse Newton and Physics
and let’s just call it a draw.
-K. Tanushree ‘Svayam’
Date of completion : 17th June, 2019
Date of publishing : 17th June, 2019.
Masquerade
I am caged
furiously.
the face shall eventually follow.
as daunting as the former.
of the next masquerade.
-K. Tanushree ‘Svayam’
Date of completion : 29th April, 2017
21 फ़रवरी, 2017
“बोल, कि लब आज़ाद हैं तेरे
बोल, ज़बां अब तक तेरी है
तेरा सुतवां जिस्म है तेरा
बोल, कि जाँ अब तक तेरी है….”
ये नज़्म आज फिर लड़खड़ाई है ,
जो पत्थर फेंके गये
उनसे छलनी हुआ देश
आज फिर रोया है,
इंसानियत की कब्र के तले
ये देश आज फिर रोया है.
तेरी सूरत में, मेरी सूरत में
ये सिसकियों के खून से सना है.
ये मारा-मारा, ढूँढता फिरता है
कि आज़ादी कहां है ?
वो दफ़न है उनकी जेबों में
जो बोलते हैं कि बोलना मना है.
वो कफ़न ओढ़े लापता हो गयी
और वतन बेलिबास पड़ा है,
उन नारेबाजों के पीछे
जो कहते हैं कि देश केवल उनका है
हाँ ! लबरेज़-ए-ग़म में कैद ज़रूर है वतन
पर देखो तो ज़रा ,
उन फेंके गए पत्थरों की लाश पर ही
ये बेखौफ़ डटा खड़ा है,
तेरी कलम में, मेरी कलम में
तेरी ज़बां में, मेरी ज़बां में
ये ज़िंदा मुस्कान जलाये चला है.
– के. तनुश्री ‘स्वयं’
Date of completion : 21st February, 2017
Date of publishing : 17th June, 2019.
Death of an Year
No crimes to bed, no fate to wed.
The worst year of a life is dead.
An year of failed rebellions,
loves lost and friendships ancient.
Struggle to keep the struggle within.
The heart breaking with every beat
into a million million shards.
Better to pretend dead,
for the demons of the past
tear all the insides apart,
worse, reveal the heart.
Gambles in Battles.
Defeats in Distances.
Revelations in Nightmares.
Tears in Red.
“This too shall pass”.
These golden words
gave no silver lining.
If past is not what lies ahead,
then what cursed ghosts of nostalgia gore the head ?
How many more lashes of memories
for the stroke of a minute’s reverie?
Tragedies in Memoirs.
Hallucinations in Silences.
Jinxes in Blessings.
Phantoms in Poems.
I will haunt the dead year, its grave, its pyre,
dance on the corpse and summon Divine
while pouring libations inflammable,
made of cold and rotting winter wine.
Ashes in Fire.
Cremations in Burials.
Deaths in Lives.
Lives in Deaths.
Resurrection ?
Rise of another year brings another revolution.
Funeral fire blazes fearless, leaving volcanoes abashed.
A celebration is duly unleashed in its honour,
The fog must be cleared.
But instead, descends obscurity as ashes rain.
The year has ended and yet reigns winter.
The sun goes by the name Frozen.
The nights are still longer,
the days are still shorter.
So if one thing leads to another,
then will this winter bring another winter ?
– K. Tanushree ‘Svayam’
Date of completion : 1st January, 2018
Date of publishing : 17th June, 2019.
The Journey Begins
Thanks for joining me!
Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton